RobYn Slade & Evan Hall, photo by Bruce Monk |
"Are you excited?"
Everybody I talk to is asking me that. I keep saying "yeeeesssss..." because I am excited but it's more complicated than that. I was feeling mostly terrifically anxious until Saturday or so, when the SUPREMELY IMPORTANT QUESTION "what am I going to wear?" was finally settled. I'm going to wear heels for sure. It might help to feel tall. And about that same time, the cast went into tech runs and dress rehearsals and it is really too late to do anything about any of it now, so time to let all of it go as best I can. This play might suck. But at least in a couple of days I'm going to know. It's a long time to wonder, while writing a play, how people might respond. There is no real way to know until...you know. One of my treasured advisers said "Even if it's everything bad a play can be, it won't change anything important. You will still love the people you love. They will still love you."
Everybody I talk to is asking me that. I keep saying "yeeeesssss..." because I am excited but it's more complicated than that. I was feeling mostly terrifically anxious until Saturday or so, when the SUPREMELY IMPORTANT QUESTION "what am I going to wear?" was finally settled. I'm going to wear heels for sure. It might help to feel tall. And about that same time, the cast went into tech runs and dress rehearsals and it is really too late to do anything about any of it now, so time to let all of it go as best I can. This play might suck. But at least in a couple of days I'm going to know. It's a long time to wonder, while writing a play, how people might respond. There is no real way to know until...you know. One of my treasured advisers said "Even if it's everything bad a play can be, it won't change anything important. You will still love the people you love. They will still love you."
I'm kind of curious what I'll find to think about after all this. Maybe, I don't know, maybe I'll think about serious things going on in the world. Maybe I'll think about other people, wouldn't that be something? I follow the rehearsal schedule from home and the team has been plenty busy. Hope they're doing all right. Hope they're not too tired, but I know they are.
Okay. Yes, I'm excited.
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